Saturday, April 30, 2011

Thoughts of Home

Its been almost 5 months since my grandmother, Mary Holmes, passed away. As crazy as it may seem to some I have tried my hardest not to let myself get too emotional about it. A few weeks ago, however, I was going through my old cell phone to get my contacts together for my new phone and noticed that I have not yet removed her number. Found it very hard to select the delete button. I suppose a part of me feels that if I finally delete it then it finalizes her being gone.

My grandfather, all 3 of my grandmothers, and my mother are all gone now. My heart feels so...broken. How I wish my mother was still here to be apart of Little Ernest and Robert's life. I never really realized until she was gone, although she drove me nuts and pissed me off, she was my best friend. We talked about everything. I miss her sarcastic jokes and encouragement. Proof that almost 12 years doesn't end your grief. When I think about things I discovered that the one person I told everything too is gone. Despite our issues I was never as open with anyone other than my mother. And since every single deep thought is held within. Sad I know.

Easter 2011

I must be honest and admit that this year was our best Easter by far. Not that Easter of previous years have been bad. Just that it was truly one I have enjoyed with nothing more than pure fun. It was great spending it with family and watching all three of my boys have a great time.

Easter celebration actually started on Saturday for us. One of Little Ernest's football teammates had an Easter party. The boys had a ball playing with all the children there. Running around and playing in the water. For me it was nice being around adults and having adult conversions for a change. I really don't do much so it was nice and relaxing. Robert even received $5 from the Easter egg hunt they had with the only egg he found. Ernest was a tad jealous of it, but he will be  The boys had a great time which is all that matters.

Anyhow, Easter was even better. They began with us attending church service. I hadn't been to church in some time which I know is sad, but it was mostly because of transportation. It felt great to be there, though. The pastor gave a great sermon as usual and they children were great with their dance, speeches, and play.

Spent the evening at my mother-in-laws for dinner and family time. We laughed and had great food. Thee kids had an Easter egg hunt and had a blast. By the end of the night me and my boys were exhausted. Well, at least I

I think one part that made this year extra great for me was that it was the first time in a long time that I had all 3 of my boys with me for this holiday. Cordell is now older and he will be having his own holiday celebrations. So it was great to spend this one with him.

Easter Week Photos

Easter Week Videos

Mardi Gras 2011

Well, the 2011 Mardi Gras season has came and gone. I honestly cannot say it was the best since we didn't get to do all the things we wanted to. Went to the MAMGA  Grand Marshal's Ball, but didn't get to tailgate like we did last year.  It was decent.

This year for the Grand Marshal's Ball at the request of my niece I tried to step out of the box and be a little different, but it didn't really work out. Every year I get my nails done, buy a new pair of heels I end up taking off after the first hour and a half, a new purse to match my gown, and a new ponytail or two. Well this year I bought some nice earrings my niece and sister-in-law helped me pick out, but they didn't look right once I put them on with the dress. My niece tried to talk me into having my hair done, but I can't stand someone messing with my hair nor adding crap like weaves. I thought about a wig. Actually I bought one and wish I didn't. I am in NO WAY a wig person! So I ended up in my usual mode, which I was actually happy with.

This year at the ball seemed extra packed. The invitations said the doors close promptly at 10pm yet when we arrived there was a line out the door. Parking sucked because people still lingered from the last parade. They had the ballroom nicely decorated with balloons and Mardi Gras decorations. The court presentation was nice too. Only downfall was too many linedances with too many people doing their own versions. So many people were almost knocking each other had a few drinks and laughs. I wasn't bored at all. I think I was just happy to be free of children and have a much needed date night with Ernest, who was very handsome in his tux. It was a great night despite my not stepping out the box.

As I mentioned earlier we didn't tailgate this year. We had plans to, but Ernest wasn't feeling good at all.  We had family downtown and I was suppose to meet up with them and my son Cordell. Let me just say that I will never go to the parades with just me and the boys again. At least not until they are teenagers. I got to the spot where the MAMGA parade begins. Couldn't find a spot to park without paying for it. Couldn't use my phone because the signal sucked, so I couldn't find anyone. Once the parade started my children were all over the place. Little Ernest yelling "Throw me something" and pushing people in the process. Robert was trying to gather everything he could find on the ground that people missed. A few people were nice enough to give the boys a few of their throws. Surprised when Ernest caught a little stuffed Mardi Gras bear. It was ok for a minute, but after it got too wild the boys wanted to leave. Wrong move! Silly me forgot that the MAMGA parade is the biggest parade and got stuck. So we waited until it was safe.  But despite the chaos it was nice just to see my boys enjoy themselves.

For us Mardi Gras 2011 didn't end with a bang like last year, but we still had a good time and that's all that really matters. On to the next family event...